NEW...7/08/02 "MY REOCCURRING DREAM OF YOU"
I heard your voice out in the distance, "come to me" it cried, a stormy song, haunting but tempting. "Come to me , I am your only true friend" it sang, " I will release you , give you freedom to love as you have always wanted". My head rocked to and fro on my pillow as I murmured " no, no, I can't go to you". The song grew louder beguiling me, then I saw you again, standing over me your brownish hair cascading over your shoulders, your bright eyes and that charismatic smile imploring me, your soft hands reaching for me. "No", I cried, "I cannot love you , you are only a dream". "Hush" you whispered, "I am here to love you not to punish you, and I came to make love to you to pleasure you". My brow now wet, my mind in turmoil, and with my temples now throbbing, I reached for you, "Show me love then, show me the way to pleasure". You came over to me , your lips found mine, you slowly kissed me passionately , your nails traced patterns across my chest and stomach, I drank in your perfume and felt the smoothness of your lovely soft skin. Your pert breasts you offered to me, I took them with hands and mouth as you moaned under my touch. You found me ready for you and then you took me in, you rode on top of me and I had never known such joy, pleasure or ecstacy and as I at last gasped and shook and clawed at the sheets , I sat upright to look you in the eyes, but you was not there ! Again I thought, again I had succumbed to the dream, but this time on the bed was a red rose and the faint fragrance of perfume lingered in the air. Were you real after all ? I wondered as I lay back knowing that I would not return to sleep but laid there wondering about this dream , this dream that's been reoccurring night after night ever since I first started Looking for you!

"YOUR MARRIED"

Love at first sight?
That's what I thought that first night!
But you were married to him,
And that made my life so very grim!
Had we met at another time...
Our Love could have been perfect!
If you could have Loved me,
As much as I Loved you...
But you didn't...
You told me you were getting a Divorce,
Then you said "NO" `cause he was using force.
I knew we couldn't go on like that forever!
Something was bound to give,
I thought without you I could not live!
But those thoughts proved me wrong,
Here I am without you and singing another Love song!
I did not want to break up your Unhappy home,
My best bet was to leave you alone!
Well you went back to him... And you know what?
My life isn't all that grim!
I am just as happy as before,
You came knocking at my door!
It has been a long time since I'd last seen you,
I just hope you are happy too!
I do thank you for being a part of my life!
Even though,I know you are still his wife.
I have no bad feelings for you,
I hope you feel the same way too!
But it is time for you to stay home...
Even though you may end up all alone!
Besides your married and can not be a part of my life!
I just hope you read this and Don"t take it in strife!

Yes Sunshine was married but seperated while I was dating her...now she is back with him and I am over her.My life goes on as usual...still looking for my Soulmate! I will never make the mistake of dating a woman that is not FULLY out of a relationship again. I refuse to put myself through such torment and misery again! Well that's the news in my life for now...don't forget if I sound interesting to you drop me a line or two because you may be the one for me and me the one for you! 07/25/01

This is where you can read the old "Whats New About Me" UPDATE 02/11/03 The updates on this page are a little out of order but when I get more time on my hands I will rearrange it and put it back in order...Thank You.Sincerely, Ron. UPDATE 12/16/02....Here is a little something my oldest sister Pam sent to me that I thought I'd share with everyone :) I am the Christmas Spirit . . . I enter the house of poverty and cause pale faced children to open wide their eyes in wonder. I cause the aged to remember their youth and to laugh. I cause eager feet to climb dark stairways with filled baskets, leaving behind hearts amazed at the goodness of the world. I cause the prodigal to pause and send to anxious family some little token of love. I enter dark prison cells, causing scarred manhood to remember what might have been and pointing to better days ahead. I enter the home of pain, and there lips that are too weak to speak, simply tremble in silent, eloquent gratitude. In a thousand ways, I cause this weary old world to look up into the face of God and, for just a few moments, forget everything that is small and wretched. You see, I am the Christmas Spirit. --Author Unknown UPDATE 12/01/02....Well here I am sitting home with the flu(YUCK!) So I thought I'd write a little something.......Anyways read and enjoy,Ron:) "I Dreamed of You" I dreamed of you last night. I dreamed of waking up next to you, your arms around me, your hands gently caressing me. I dreamed of turning to face you, you pulling me closer, feeling my skin against yours. I dreamed of your hands, running through my hair, pulling my face to yours. I dreamed of your lips on mine, tracing my lips with your tongue, kissing me softly. I dreamed of your kisses, slow, gentle, deepening with passion. I dreamed of touching you, feeling the heat of your body, feeling you respond to my touch. I dreamed of your touch, your mouth, your tongue, exciting me, pleasuring me. I dreamed last night, our bodies joined in passion, together at last. But as I dreamed of you, your face nor your hair did not come into clear focus. Are you a blonde,brunette or a red head? Only time will tell! Well that was my dream of you last night and may be it will continue tonight! I hope it does because I am tired of being alone! I know that Christmas is near and I am needing you Dear! So please let us find each other soon so both of our lives will be complete and I will not feel so gloom! UPDATE 11/01//02Comments: I just wanted to say thank you everyone for signing my guest book! The kind words you leave there are an inspiration to me :) I would like to add that I know some of you out there can write poetry so come on send me something to add to the submission page! I will only put your name by your poem if you want credit for it otherwise I will put anonymous as the author. again I say THANK YOU for visiting and signing my guest book, Sincerely Ron. November 1, 2002 05:53:52 (GMT Time) UPDATE....10/30/02 OK so another relationship I was in failed but it's not the end of the world for me as my life goes on! I still don't regret the time I spent with her as it was time well spent being able to share my Love and myself with another person! I am looking forward to meeting someone new to share my life with! Hopefully it will last a lifetime the next time around but only God knows the answer to that thought! Well I leave you with these thoughts for today (a quote from my very first poem). "When the days are lost in memory,and all the pages have been turned.PLEASE look back at the good-times,and remember; It was a candle, not a bridge we burned"! Have a good day `cause I know I will be and keep smiling it makes them wonder what you're up to! Sincerely Ron ;) UPDATE.....10/28/02 "WHY US" Love comes and it goes, As relationships has it's woes! I can remember a time, When she was mine! But her lack of communication, Had it's depervation! Now the Love I once had, Could it have gone bad? No I don't believe so! As our break up came to me as a blow! I know I do still Love her! I just don't know how to get thru to her! It has been several days since our break up! I just wish we could make up! This pain in my heart I cannot take! Could it be her Love for me was fake? No `cause I know it was true! And that is what is making me feel so blue! For if she would just meet me halfway, Our Love would see another day! "My Love" I want to say to you, I'm sorry I made you feel so blue too! Copyright © 2002 Ron Marcus All Rights Reserved Well as you may of guessed me and my latest Love has had a little arguement that got out of hand. Well if our Love was meant to be I suppose we will get back together again! If not I have met and had yet another very Special and Wonderful woman in my Life even if it was just for a short time. I have no regrets about the time I spent with my latest "Love" and sincerely hope our relationship is not over with! But if it is I know it was time well spent with her and was better than spending it by myself! We all wish that when we are in Love that it last forever but it doesn't always seem to work out the way we plan on it to. It works out the way God wants it to as he seems to have the final word in it all as God puts us through all kinds of trials and tribulations on our journey through Life! But I leave you with this "Don't ever give up on what you believe in and hold what you know true to your heart". Don't forget to bring a smile to a strangers face,to keep the children laughing and to never give up hope! Have a good day as I know I will try to.Sincerely Ron:) UPDATE....10/06/02 On August 11,2002 I had a family reunion at lake thunderbird and met a very Beautiful young woman that wanted me to take her out on the inner tube for a ride around the lake. Well it turned out that I knew this Beautiful young woman from pumping my gas at her Grandfathers gas station some 20 years ago! Well after that day at the lake we talked several times on the phone and I asked her out a couple of times but she was always busy, then one day she called me up so I tried one more time to take her out and we finally got together! To make a long story short here, it seems like we are two of a kind in all aspects of our likes and dislikes and have been dating each other since the end of August and it seems that we have alot in common and it looks like we will be together a very long time as I know our Love for one another will keep growing and growing! God Bless all and good luck in all of your relationships and your searches for your soulmate as I have found mine!! Ron :)UPDATE...7/03/02 Well I been back from vacation now for about three weeks. I am putting some of the pictures on the next page if you care to have a look:) We had a blast in galveston but six flags over Texas was another story! Even though we went on a Monday the lines were very long and there is not much to do there with a five year old....I would not recommend going there on a monday, may be a tuesday or wednesday would be better. There has been alot going on in my life the last week or so...I bought an 18ft ski boat and had no way to get it home...so I have been looking for a cheap car or truck to buy (all I own is imports) so I went to the auction tonight and after bidding on several trucks only to get out bidded on them, I ended up buying a 1982 Chevy El Camino! I paid about twice as much as I wanted to pay but it was well worth it to get my boat in the water for the first time:)Well that's about it for this update...still looking for a woman to date but I'm sure I'll find one soon...Have a good day and a great Life cause I know I am,Ron:) UPDATE...6/01/02 Well my vacation started today and I am taking my daughter to six flags monday and then we are going to spend the rest of the week in galveston at the beach. I searched thru the personal ads during the last month looking to meet a new Lady friend to go with us but had no luck in finding anyone:)Oh well my search continues for my perfect soul mate....keep checking back I may update with a new poem if I find something to write about besides loneliness...Have a good day cause I know I am,Ron. UPDATE...5/03/02 This is a poem I wrote to Angela a Lady I was dating during the Christmas holidays.I never had a chance to give it to her so may be she will stop by and see it. "OUR LOVE" What goes on in your head? Do you wish our Love was dead? Or is it that you are just scared? Well I don't think that it's fair! You know I am trying my best to Love you! Are you trying to Love me too? If our Love is to grow, You will have to stop putting on a show! Please Baby I beg of you, To share your feelings and thoughts with me too! Let me know just how you feel! So I will know how to deal! With this Love for you that I feel! Angel I Love you! Do you Love me too? UPDATE...UPDATE...4-6-2002 The following was sent to me by my sister Cathy the other day. I thought it was so good I just had to post it here to share with everyone. I don't know who wrote it cause it's making the rounds thru the E-mail system. It's not my writing but if anyone knows who wrote it please E-mail me so I can give them credit for it! Thanks Sis... way to go! "PERFECT HEART" One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart. Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said,"But, your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars. It had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing. The people stared - how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine. Mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears." "Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking, but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love. I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart. But because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges. Giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?" The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands.The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore, but more beautiful than ever since love from the old man's heart flowed into his. They embraced and walked away side by side. How sad it must be to go through life with a whole heart. Remember... Work like you don't need the money. Love like you've never been hurt. Dance like nobody is watching. The previous story is so TRUE! What good is Love in your heart if you don't learn how to share it or have no one to share it with! Everyone have a good day and don't forget to smile :) and give a kind word to a stranger you pass by, it makes this a better world to live in. Ron :) 6/27/2001What The He## happened to my original site? I payed for an entire year of web hosting just to have my site deleted by the webmaster because he couldn't afford to stay in business! Now that wouldn't of been so bad if he would have gave me some warning that he was shutting down... but NO he just turned off the server and left us wondering if he was having network troubles! Just ten days after I got it registered with all the major search engines! Oh well life goes on and I know how to rebuild and how to reregister everything so here we are again. Please just bare with me as I rebiuld as you may notice some pages may be blanked out as I am still working on them. Thank you for your understanding,Ron :) UPDATE 09/18/01!!!I was needing to update my site this month and I just couldn't put another poem on untill I said a little something about the terrorist attack on our Nation september 11,2001. I just want everyone to remember to pray for those still missing and to do your part on help rebuilding this Nation of ours back to some form of normal security we once had in our lives. Whether it be a donation of blood, food supplies or money please do your part in helping to rebuild this Great Country of ours that we call Home... God Bless us all in this time of need,Ron. Look below for some photos that I found on the web and I will be adding a page to show tribute to those we lost and for those that survived. UPDATE 10/22/2001 Well another month has gone by as we recover from the terrorist attack on our nation and our mail boxes are still overflowing with tributes and dedications of those whose lives were taken away so quickly that terrible day back in september.I thought it was time to change the picture on this page to something a little more peaceful and tranquil as you can see it is a picture of what the Twin Towers once looked like to us all. As for an update on my life nothing has changed I am still single and looking and I hope I will find someone soon because all of my poems lately come out sad sounding so I am am not going to post them on this site:( Maybe someday soon I will find what I am looking for and start writing poems to someone I care about:) God Bless us all and remember to remain focused on moving ahead instead of looking back all the time,Ron:) UPDATE 12/23/01 On november 16,2001 I was contacted by the a very Lovely Lady to look at her profile...well I got to know her and after talking to her for about a week non stop via instant chat we decide to go out. To make a long story short here I do believe I have met my Soulmate! The woman of my dreams that I have been waiting on all of my life . It's only been a short time I know but truly I care deeply for this woman and someday I do intend to marry her. I tell her this all the time .... I know we will spend the rest of our lives together as I can feel it in my heart of hearts! Angela my Love, someday you will be my wife.... you'll see. I do care for you deeply and feel as if I may be falling in Love with you it seems, Ronnie. :) UPDATE 1/17/02 Well so much for what I thought was the Love of my life...I yet had another one break my heart. It saddens me to say I was blown off by a woman that was afraid of commitment...One day I will meet the woman of my dreams. Heres the last poem that I had wrote....enjoy,Ron. "I WANNA KNOW" What goes on in your head? Do you wish our Love was dead? Or is it that you are just scared? Well I don't think to me that it's fair! Are you trying to Love me too? If our Love is to grow... You will have to stop putting on a show! Please Baby I beg of you, To share your feelings and thoughts with me too! Let me know how you feel, So I will know how to deal! How to deal with this Love that I feel! Angel I Do Love you! Do you Love me too? Copyright © 2002 Ron Marcus All Rights Reserved.